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A song for a father On this day the soul of my father came into his embodiment to be with us here for just 54 years. On this photo more than 35 years ago we are dressed in our polish traditional costume for cultural celebration in Germany and it’s one of my most happy memories. The family had just been united after almost two years of seperation (due political circumstances in my birth country Poland) and the hearts were filled with hope and great dreams for the future. Most of the dreams did not come true and hopes were washed away by unbelievable struggle. A life lived in regrets, sadness, anger and grief. Grief, I learned is just a strong energy accumulated in our chest that does not move and causes great pain. People who grief, suffer greatly. I know my father had a lot of grief to deal with. People say grief is love with no place to go. It’s the love you want to give but cannot. Maybe because there is no one to receive, maybe because you don’t know how. I found that healing deep grief is very important to move on life. We all experience grief on some point in our lives, we all go through losses of all kinds. My losses were huge and left their marks. But I learned to grief properly. Grieving properly also means for me to set things right. We sometimes grief over a loss and it becomes very intense because we placed the person/object,project, home, job etc. like a statue on a Podest, as a reminder of its perfection, while in fact it was never perfect and we grief so deeply cause we avoid to heal our illusions. My father was not perfect at all and there was a lot to learn and to forgive. My father was one of my greatest teachers for unconditional and true love. Not by being such a great example of it. By being the way he was: Not able to express his love properly. I learned the most from watching that pain. True love is not praising someone for all their good, it’s loving them for everything, all in total, who they truly were or are. It’s forgiving them everything unconditionally, all they did us wrong and all they could not do for us. True love is not a one sided, blinded affection -addiction. True love is born by embracing all aspects. The same is true for hate. Often people hate something about someone and they focus on that only. They can’t see the other love-able aspects. When they could, hate would transform to love. True love would be born. I went through this process of feeling hate for my father to loving him. I learned that most people on earth are afraid of that kind of love. When we truly love someone, we love their wholeness and don’t leave things out. When we grief about them, we need to allow ourselves also to feel the sadness and pain they caused to us. Not only the pain that their absence causes. When a loss occurs the energy in our heart area builds up to a huge cloud and then it can crack our heart open and lots of feelings can come up. These could be all kinds of feelings from the past, we did not process or allow ourselves to feel. We have to acknowledge the bad experiences, the disappointment, the fear, anxiety, anger and more people we lost, caused to us. In this way we grief authentically and the grief will remain in proportion and be free of ego-grief. Ego-grief is truly an attachments to illusions and it only builds up when we can’t see things for what they truly were/are. I know that my grief I am experiencing is also a lot about the missed opportunities my father had. All the wasted potential and unfulfilled life task. The loss of his soul journey and the unfulfilled desire to be close to the source. My father had a great passion for life but did not know how to express his driving passion and how to channel it into something good. I know when I grief about that, I also grief about my own inability to express mine. He continues to teach me things still, a long time after he is gone. I learned to love my father with my whole heart. I learned to love him for who he truly was not only for what I wanted him to be. My father was not a father figure like we are programmed to believe fathers should be. My father was the one my soul chose to be with to teach me all about unconditional, true love, I wanted to learn. He accomplished this part of his task and I am deeply grateful for that. With my deepest love and gratitude Happy Birthday Dad. Lenka. PHOTO My father Richard Kusch, my brother Christoph and me in 1983, Frankfurt Germany PHOTO Above Jewish Memorial Berlin, Potsdamer Platz by unknown.

Somewhere only we know what is the very best for us and which way to go but sometimes we have doubts and we refuse to believe our own knowing. We are stuck in our illusions, programming, fears and false beliefs about ourselves and our life. We could be clinging to the past (experiences) for many good reasons and trying to ignore all signs in a new direction. When a soul gets off the course a lot of things happen in the soul realm and the spiritual guides, protectors, ancestors and most likely a very special companion called "Tian Ming" in the TAO SCIENCE, become very active to alert us, awaken our mind and help us to get back on track. They do this, because they love us and because we have asked them for that before we came into our human embodiment. We have agreements with them and especially Tian Ming, who is a saint assigned to us to help us to accomplish our life tasks, is very committed to help us to do what we came for. These agreements for support are truly for our greatest best, for our protection and our growth. As souls we sit in the soul realm in a place called AKASHA RECORDS for a while and make our plans for our future life on earth, or somewhere else. We make them with the help of the heavens team according to our soul standing, our frequency and vibration and the amount of HEAVENS VIRTUE on our heavens bank account, which was offered to us for our previous services. All our services are recorded in the Akashic Records. These records are also called karma. When our souls come to earth they have plans, sometimes really huge ones and they have the best intentions for growth and the best service they can offer. They also have free will and as human we have a mind that actually functions like a hard disk on a computer and needs to be programmed first. Our human mind does not know in the beginning about all the plans our souls have. Most likely it does not remember who we truly are, where we came from and what for... The mind needs to learn and be filled with information and educated by the soul about the steps to take in life. Some minds and souls of people work pretty well together. They are aligned and in great harmony. The soul makes a request, provides an idea or inspiration and the mind follows. It sends the impulse to our body to do what is needed: move the fingers or the legs, pick up the phone and make a call, get dressed or go to sleep. When minds and bodies follow what the soul wants, all is good. We might feel a deep sense of happiness and joy, peace, harmony and great fulfillment in the things we do and the ways we live. This is a wonderful place to be and I like to call it the "real comfort zone". Internally we might experience a real balance between security and excitement: yin yang balance and we don't really think about changing anything. Then there is also what is called "fake comfort zone". This condition is a pretty common thing and people tend to mistake it for the real comfort zone as the human beings are programmed in this way at this time on earth. In this zone people feel actually not really fulfilled for example with what they do for living , where they live, with the friends they have or with whom they are in a relationship. They feel desires for other things, constantly dream about an other job or have phantasies about a partnership with someone else. They might feel a deep yearning for education or spiritual growth and input, for more inspiration, creativity or excitement. They might feel bored and trapped or too stressed and overwhelmed with everything that happens in their life. These feelings are already clear signs from the soul world. They feel this way, cause the soul feels this way. The soul has decided to move on, to change something, to improve or to accomplish a major next step on the soul journey and tries to awaken the mind to gain new understanding and clarity about the next steps. When the mind does not respond fast enough, this is when heavens teams respond and offer support in all ways. This is when they begin to send signs, which are truly heavenly directed and mind blowing. They have to be mind blowing, to hit and awaken the mind. There is an infinite number of possible signs and they are actually individually designed, so that the individual might really comprehend them with the unique mind as everyone is truly very different. Signs could be gentle, soft and kind, have "yin-character" and they could be strong and truly forceful, more yang, like for example an accident or mishap. There could be very clear warning signs and those who shaken objects or others in front of us, so we get the message. Signs are really a very common way how the universe communicates with earthly beings. Not all are aware of this and respond to the signs and message from the soul realm. Some minds are really deeply asleep and like to reject things like that, put it down, make fun of it or simply deny to have been experiencing signs. TYPES OF SIGNS There are signs that are for the individual people as well as those for the global consciousness which could happen publicly or not but are meant to inform huge masses about something. I have been personally receiving and experiencing all kinds of signs probably since my early childhood. I have been experiencing how well the universe knows me and how it operates to give me all kinds of signs that I will comprehend and follow. I am also very sure that I have missed countless of them and that the universe must have been repeating many of them constantly until I finally listened. When we get signs and ignore them or misinterpret them, we will receive other and stronger signs. Signs can be also given when we actually consciously request for them. We can ask simply the universe or our guides, we can ask souls of beloved ones in the soul realm or on earth and we can ask our own soul. We can ask the souls of other people we know and wish to have an answer from to deliver it to us through signs. You will find a link below how to make a request for signs. REPEATERS In the past few weeks I have been constantly receiving very significant signs to help me to heal from the past, to put me on my new path and to empower me to serve in my field in the very best way I can at this time. I have been receiving many sweet and gentle reminders that made my heart dance and some a little more intense ones. In last December for example, I was sitting in a café for lunch in a village about an hour from my home and doing some soul communication there and asking for guidance for certain things related to my service. I was picking some Tarot cards and reflecting upon them. I picked a card that was very clearly pointing to what I should do next but my mind started to argue and wonder. I had huge resistance coming up when I was told to focus on that in the near future and negative thoughts like: why should I do that…, people don't want to hear about that...and more... In the moment when I was just questioning everything, I got the message directly through my spiritual channels, that I have to do it, because I would bring a lot of hope, healing and light to the ones who need it...Right in that moment the big grocery store down on the street, that I could see from above, just lit on all their lights and advertisements outside. This was a clear sign in my view and the end of my arguments with the soul world. A few days after I simply stood up in the morning and did what heaven asked me to do, which was to record videos about my healing path of the condition I suffer from called "endometriosis" and to post it on a new channel. Other signs related to my task of bringing the wisdom and knowledge and spiritual perspective about healing of trauma and codependency were offered to me "on repeat" over a longer period of time. Until the day where I was doing a bigger cleaning before Christmas, which included the windows, when I broke a very beautiful birthday gift from a dear friend. It was a crystal bird that stood for my soul mate and our connection. The moment the bird felt to the ground, my heart stood still and my mind did not like the cracking sound at all. Luckily when I picked it up, I saw that I could fix it again. At the same time I clearly knew, this was a significant message from my soul mate and he told me that he really needs my help at this time,he needs to understand co-dependency deeper. He said he broke his wings a while ago and does not know how to get himself together and out of the struggle he is. He said, he wants to fly again but one can spread a broken wing. I again felt some blockages coming up within me and I had doubts about what to do with this request. Things have not been easy at all in the recent past for us, so I was concerned to make mistakes. Heaven did not give up on us and the very next day, when I went on my Instagram account, the first thing I saw, was a beautiful painting of one of my favorite artists, which you can see below… It confirmed my previous messages in a mind blowing way…so I went on and on the same day, which was December 24th and I accomplished what I was asked for to do. Signs are a very powerful way for communication between heaven and earth and amongst souls. Sometimes something in the house will fall down or apart or disappear, so we hear what heaven or other souls want to express to us. One of my very recent experiences this week was that the cover of the lamp on the ceiling in my bathroom felt down while I was in the shower. I was not even close to it. Luckily it felt on a thick carpet and did not break but this incident was a clear message to me, while I was thinking about a certain task I was postponing for very long... When this happened, I knew it was a kind reminder to get it done and I knew why. HOW TO KNOW IF WE ARE RECEIVING A SIGN From my personal experience, when we are receiving a sign, we simply know it. We could have a feeling like something "hit" us. I often feel actually a strong energy that hits me in my heart center or crown and moves through me in a moment of a sign. When we are not so sensitive to energy, we might still have a sensation, a feeling or a physical response like a relief (of tension). On the mental level we might have a beam of clarity, an epiphany and deep understanding of a matter we did not have before. We could really sense stress or burden leaving us as well feel excitement, joy, love and peace. For me, I mostly feel a very profound peace, followed by gratitude which really often comes faster than my mind can think. I feel the peace also when "negative" messages are revealed and for me this peace is an indicator that I am on the right path or that everything is going to be alright no matter what challenge is showing up now. Often just in the moment of the realization of a sign it seems like the time and the universe stands still and all is very sharp and present. I also feel inspired and filled with hope when I receive signs. Its important to know that the message of the signs is always determined by the recipient. Like the lyrics of songs. They might have meant something very different to the artist when they wrote it but when we listen to it, we might have our own very personal experience and meaning of it. This is the beauty of art. Two people could receive exactly the same sign but it could mean something completely different to each one of them. We can not really argue or discuss the meaning of the signs. We simply know it in our hearts. We can share with others and ask for their opinion but the experience is ours, no matter what they say. Some signs from heaven are also very physical like a feather or for example a stone in a certain shape. Some signs can be taken literally, like a heart shape stone stands for love. For others we have associations, which are the actual messages we should think of or be reminded of. Some signs could be very consistently offered for one issue and some signs only appear ones in a life time. I often tend to pick up the physical signs and keep them in special places where they will continue to remind me of the particular message or lesson. Most of the signs I simply keep in my heart...and for the very big ones, I take notes about them in my diary. IF YOU WISH TO ASK FOR SIGNS Below you will find a short practice how to connect with the soul world and request for signs as well as some basic guidelines. Please take notes of the guidelines if you have to. This is a formula I learned from my beloved teacher Dr. Master Zhi Gang Sha and that I apply for everything in life. Its called SOUL POWER. Applying this even though its very simple, is very scared to me and I believe we should always communicate with greatest respect with other people as well as with souls and the soul realm, especially saints and our guides. Sometimes we ask for a sign cause we are challenged and feel imbalanced, in a moment when we have a great need for a sign. Its still important to show courtesy as well as be aware that when we are too emotional, we might not see the sign, even its right in front of us. Its important to request help and at the same time to release all attachments to the answer... When, how and if the sign will be given, is up to heaven. All we have to do is to stay open and trust. PRACTICE How to make requests for signs I was recently in a very sad place after experiencing something very unpleasant regarding the love journey. I connected with the soul of my true love soul mate and picked a card. The message was that I should go out in the nature...it made sense to me, I knew I could get relief by moving and breathing fresh air. Even it was very late in the evening, I got dressed and went out into the cold. I went on a walk to the lake. Being there instantly uplifted me. It became peaceful in my mind around that topic and what happened between the two of us. I felt inspired to do an universal meditation for forgiveness. First I did it basically with all souls and later I decided to do the same with just his soul. I chanted for a while and felt his soul was present and very loving. So I opened my heart and started a soul conversation with him. I asked his soul, when there is still hope for the two of us, when I should continue to trust and move on with the process, he should please give me a vey clear sign in the physical realm. Then I will continue to have faith and do what is asked of me. I thanked him and I went back towards home. I was already feeling much better. I was exhausted from the negative thoughts and feelings of the day and decided to leave it all behind. I was grateful for the advice to go out. I walked down the pathway and on the crossing where I would usually turn right, I felt, I should keep going straight and instead take the little path between the trees to my home. I walked and still chanted mantras in my heart. Just when my home appeared behind the trees, I looked up and then I saw an unbelievable shooting star, just in that moment falling from the right side all across the road I walked to the left. This was the longest fall I have ever witnessed. I was literally in shock. I instantly knew this was the sign I have just asked for. I felt incredible joy and was moved to tears. I just stood there and starred at the sky an cried. I thanked his soul and the entire universe for the gift and the very fast answer. It was one of the most beautiful experiences with signs of my entire life. Sometimes the signs come instantly. Sometimes not. Sometimes we have even forgotten that we have asked for them...and they still come out of the blue...but we instantly know that´s it. This is how it works. What comes in my mind is: you ask and you shall receive. We just have to dare to request... I hope you enjoy the universal play too. If you have any questions or experiences to share, please feel free to write in the comments below. Please enjoy one of my currently favorite songs, which was also a sign when it came to me but this I will share another time...Maybe Sign of the times by Harry Style With Love Magdalena The City Monk is now also on Instagram ART With my deepest love and gratitude for the painting “Bird Heaven” to Natalia Kukunet

I am starting to dream again, and one of my dreams is to become a Tao Calligraphy Practitioner! I have already acknowledged that my initial receptivity to Tao Calligraphy was "lukewarm", but after my first Tao Calligraphy retreat I was very enthusiastic about writing Tao Calligraphy! However, because I was not disciplined in my writing, I switched from writing to tracing, so I could learn and benefit further without creating improper writing habits. Currently I mostly trace Tao Calligraphy. As I trace more and more, I see many benefits coming into my life. Tracing in general is a good meditative practice and brings me into alignment with the Tao Source frequency and vibration in the calligraphy. Just to align and open to this vibration brings me many blessings. If I make a particular request, the frequency and vibration go to my request. I have traced Tao Calligraphy for myself and others for a wide variety of life issues, including to help me to heal from stage IV lymphoma. I find that tracing Tao Calligraphy lifts the heaviness from my life. Things change when I trace Tao Calligraphy, even if I don't feel it during the practice. Furthermore, as I trace, I am also getting more and more aligned with how to write Tao Calligraphy. This is one of the reasons why Master Sha and his Tao Calligraphy Teachers request us to trace Tao Calligraphy before we write Tao Calligraphy. It is important to learn the character and the flow of the sacred phrase before we write it. It is important to feel it, align with it, know it and then surrender to it. When I first began writing Tao Calligraphy, Da Ai was one of the hardest ones for me to learn to write. Currently, however, I trace Da Ai almost every day. I feel I have grown more aligned with Da Ai on every level. I am really hoping that when I pick up the brush again, my experience with writing Da Ai will be different! I have also enjoyed tracing many other calligraphies. In fact, I felt I had discovered a treasure chest when I went back to the Soul Healing Miracles book and learned to trace the many Tao Calligraphies there, some of which I had not spent much time with. This adventure began when I joined a practice led by a top Master Teacher who focused on tracing the Tao Calligraphy called San Jaio Chang Tong (Figure 24 in Soul Healing Miracles book, which means, "The Key Pathway of Qi and Body Fluid Flows Freely) daily. I had never traced it before as a practice. Tracing it daily, I began to love it and to enjoy the terrific power of this Tao Calligraphy to remove blockages and open up my San Jaio (upper, middle and lower torso). The same happened when I traced Tao Calligraphy called Hei Heng Hong Ha (Figure 15 in Soul Healing Miracles; these are sounds that are associated with the First, Second and Third Soul Houses and entire Zhong/core area). I had invoked this calligraphy quite often to practice with, but I had not traced it. I found that tracing it was exciting and powerful and can boost my foundation rapidly! In general, I have found tracing Tao Calligraphy to be invaluable to my daily regiment for my spiritual, mental, emotional and physical health. I also find that I simply enjoy the flow, beauty and connection to Source that comes when we trace. It just feels good. Thank you again, Master Sha, for bringing us Tao Calligraphy. Thank you that anyone can enjoy, practice and benefit with Tao Calligraphy. I hope to someday be a Tao Calligraphy Practitioner. For now, I will continue to apply it and share it with others. With love, Marsha and Tao Hands Team